Warning: rather than a joy-filled, Christ-centered post, today I am sharing my real, raw and vulnerable thoughts. Sorry, I’m just keeping it real.
Hey Friends –
It started over Christmas break.
Rather than sleeping through the night, I would toss and turn and meditate on all the “worst case scenarios”. My mind was pelted with horrible fears, discomforting worry, and extreme anxiety. My lack of self-confidence and insecurities were at an all-time high.
I shared my concerns with a close girlfriend. After hearing the intense fear and lack of courage oozing from her normally upbeat, sparkly, encouraging friend – my friend finally declared, “Cindy, maybe you’re not ready. I’ve just not seen this side of you before.”
I agreed. My apprehensions were “through the roof”, so to speak, and I didn’t know what to do.
My only solution, I sensed, was to step back and quit. I just couldn’t do it.
Have you ever been there before?
Have you wanted to throw in the towel on a new opportunity, project, relationship, or dream?
Did it seem easier to step back into the safe, familiar and comfortable rather than step out by faith into the new and the unknown?
When was the last time you wanted to quit?
Thankfully I didn’t let fear and anxiety get the best of me -yet.
As terrifying as it’s been to step out into the new world of publication, I turned in my Red Hot Faith manuscript to the editor on Monday. In addition to the video teachings filmed on-site in Ancient Laodicea, I have officially written a Bible study/participant’s guide. Whew and thank You God. 🙂
It’s true that I still hear the voices of doubt and discouragement…
- “What if people write letters and say mean things to you?”
- “What if people think it’s not fill in the blank enough”
- “What if people mock your hair, your writing style, your speech, your you name it.”
In my next post I’ll share with you more specifically how I was able to keep going and not give up, and I’ll share how you can keep going too!
How about for you, friend? When was the last time you wanted to quit, and what helped you keep going? How did you overcome your current challenges? I’d love to hear from you!
Thanks for stopping by *She Sparkles*. Have a wonderful, joy-filled weekend!