Hey Friends –
What is it that you are most afraid of?
I don’t mean like spiders or mice or noises in the night, but what are the “below the surface” fears that hold you back from being the woman/man that God has called you to be??
I’ve been thinking about this lately as I step into some new “out of my comfort zone” opportunities, and face some personal challenges I’ve been wrestling with. Can I be honest??
This new season brings up every lie, insecurity, and fear in me. And it stinks.
For today, rather than going down those “unhealthy trails” of negative thinking and lies…
- I’m looking UP and filling my mind with TRUTH!
- I’m asking God to give me specific verses to memorize to eradicate these false belief systems and renew my mind with God’s Word!
- I’m celebrating the huge victory I’ve experienced through Christ in my life!
- I’m reflecting on how God has taken “man’s rejection” from the past and brought much health and healing to me!
My “old fears” DO NOT have to impact my “new days”, do they?? 
Thankfully we are NOT unaware of the enemy schemes and his tactics.
Here’s the “wound” I’ve been reflecting on…and my journey from rejection to redemption….
When I was a little girl I always DREAMED of being a cheerleader.
While other little girls were playing princess or drinking tea at their tea parties – I was at home practicing my cheers or working on my jumps! When I was cheering, I felt fully alive!
I can still remember my first set of pom poms. I dressed my dolls in cheerleading outfits. I hung cheerleading posters on my wall, went to cheerleading camp in the summer. There was nothing like cheerleading to me!
I wish I could tell you I was a varsity cheerleader in high school, that I went to college on a cheering scholarship, and still get phone calls when they need a cheerleader fill-in.
Unfortunately, that’s not my story.
I did make it as a JV football cheerleader…alternate.
I did make it as a JV basketball cheerleader.
And when I tried out for Varsity cheerleading, I found there were 10 girls trying out for 10 spots.
I could already see myself in the new Varsity cheerleading uniform.
But unfortunately, after tryouts, I received a call –
I didn’t make the team.
I wasn’t good enough, to them.
I didn’t have what it would take, they said.
The coaches decided they would rather go with 9 cheerleaders that season.
On that day, I made myself a promise. Never would I cheer again. Never.
Never would I set myself up for such pain, humiliation, rejection. That part of me was done.
And unfortuately, I allowed my cheerleading experience to shape much of my identity….and went through high school and college thinking that’s who I was ~ unwanted, rejected, not good enough.
It was empty and defeated living.
Thankfully, in July of 1996, at the age of 26, I met Jesus Christ…and everything changed.
Jesus says that I am Beautiful. Just the way that I am.
Jesus says that I am Chosen. Handpicked by Him. He wants me on His team.
Jesus says that in Him I am complete. More than enough. Dearly and lavishly loved.
And regardless of how I feel, I am choosing to take Jesus at His Word.
Isn’t it fun how God brings special people into our lives to be voices of His Truth?
A few years ago during Bible study, my dear friends “got me good” with an amazing surprise.
In the middle of our study, the “ringleader” Natasha comes running into the room with a purple megaphone, while 5 friends bounce in the room carrying cards with the letters C – I – N – D -Y.
Suddenly I look around the room, and everyone in the room is holding pom poms and cheering with all their might.
For me.
They are cheering because it is my birthday and I am on their team.
Natasha shares…”There were a lot of “not enoughs” for Cindy. But the Truth is that Cindy was and is “More than ENOUGH” and God has truly used her, to share that Truth with other women. For her Birthday we just wanted to remind her of that…Happy Birthday Cindy!!!”
Only God could take a shy, insecure wanna-be cheerleader (me!) and fill her to *overflowing* with peace and joy and confidence in Him. Only God.
And only God could orchestrate an amazing birthday filled with so much joy, celebration, and healing. Only God. Isn’t He good??!
On my hard days I need to remember the journey of redemption God has placed me on.
Friends, I don’t know what kind of wounds you’ve experienced, but please know God can bring hope, healing, and redemption to the deepest pain. Allow Him to clean out, comfort, bandage and heal those places of hurt.
Watch Him speak Truth over the lies that have shaped your thinking and impacted your decisions, for way too long.
We do NOT have to allow our “old fears” to impact our “new days”, do we??
Woo Hoo! I’m so EXCITED I think I want to cheer! Yeah, Jesus! 🙂
What is it that you are most afraid of? What “seed of Truth” can you memorize to renew your mind with God’s Word? Share with us (if you feel comfortable). I’d love to pray for you too!
Let’s pray…Thank You, God, that You do not waste our pain. Thank You for being a God of Truth and Hope and Redemption. Thank You for the beauty of sisterhood and friendship. Thank You for life in Your Name. Thank You that in Christ we are loved and forgiven and chosen. Please use us, O Lord, to remind others of the JOY that is found in life in You. For Your Glory Alone. Amen.
Thanks for stopping by *She Sparkles*. Have a joy-filled, liberating, victorious weekned!
Cindy, there is so many pieces of truth in this post you could write for days! I was also working on a related post. I can relate on so many levels. I tried out for junior high cheerleading only when I found out that 50% of the votes would be from judges, the rest from the student body. Before that, only the student body voted. (!) I figured I had at least a 50% chance of being “acceptable.” Fear of rejection was so real to me during childhood, and even as an adult. Thank you for sharing your fears so authentically. What a great God we have to shower you with cheers from women you have blessed. I’m cheering you for this next leg of the journey!